moving on up

Dear Blog,
Well as you all know that I am a senior this year and the year is about to come to and end like many other things have been for me recently. Not only do I graduate but I'm moving onto college where i plan on earning my associates degree in just a few years. I plan on moving onto a four year college and earn more degree's. Everything will take time and I just can't wait to graduate because that's the begining of a whole new life. Im hoping that in time my whole new life will bring a whole new person, as in a guy person. I did break it off with Joshua due to many things but I will say that I miss him a lot but I don't want to greeve about him because I know that things will get better for me.
As I currently type I'm sitting in the library at my high school and I'm thinking to myself pretty soon I wont be able to escape from class to come here for the air conditioning because I wont be going to this school anymore. Yes, I would probably come and visit but, only to see the teachers that I think I'm going to miss greatly. Many of them have had huge impacts on my life and the way that I look at it because this being my senior year I see that I really needed to buckle down and be a lot better at what I do.
But anyways everything is besides the point. I think that it's time to call this one and end. I will keep everything I can up to date.


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*him*

Well it's been like 4 days since I have talked to the one and only amazing Joshua Paul*
I miss him like crazy and I just want to tell him that I love him so he can hear it come
from my voice. Though right now my voice is scratchy it would sound weird to him but
it would still mean a lot to me. There's just so much going on right now for both of us I
want to feel like everything is ok for him but, I know that hes hurting because what has
just recently happened. I don't think I will go into details about that. But, I will say that
his phone was shut off due to an aunt not telling him about it getting shut off. So much
drama going on for both of us. With my house my sister and college and things *urgh*
doing thing's like this is just so frustrating. I hate having to go through everything by
myself, I dont have my life (Joshua Paul) there to help me get through everything.
I really need to see him or talk to him I will settle for that alone. :o( I miss him that
much. But anyways I'm going to tell my life story. I love you Joshua Paul always.
I miss you like crazy remember that. muah*


Miss Elizabeth

its on!

well i thought it was time to re update the whole im not with Joshua thing deal here! that whole blog is not so true anymore. We are back together and happier than ever i guess that was just a phase. lol. anyways i dont like phases like that. i found out our new song and it is.....
hawthorne heights

Bleed these colors open wideBurning blues from butterflies(Tonight we, Tonight we fly)Flying faster through the nightUntil the orange of morning light(Dear black goodbye, Dear black goodbye)I know it's hard to make this workWhen you're all alone (Alone)And I've been waiting for so longTo hold you in my armsEmbrace forever my sweet girlWater fills these open eyes (Tonight we fly)Still frames and valentinesWon't keep me in her mind(Dear black goodbye, Dear black goodbye)I know it's hard to make this workWhen you're all alone (Alone)And I've been waiting for so longTo hold you in my armsEmbrace forever my sweet girl[x2]You are the ghost of everything that I'm not and I want to be[x2]Dear black goodbye (Goodbye)Don't forget to write Your name inside (Goodbye) Of my lifeAnd I know it's hard to make this workWhen you're all aloneI've been waiting for so longTo hold you in my armsAnd I've been waiting for so longTo hold you in my armsEmbrace forever my sweet girl

And no its not intended to be emo! but anyways i love him!

*gone*

Well as you all know probably* I am no longer with Joshua. It was a hard break up for me being that we were together for almost two years. Yes I miss him like crazy but, I don’t miss some things that he used to do. I miss the attention beyond anything. He use to be such a sweetheart and he changed over time not someone I really wanted to be with anymore. I wanted to leave but I was just a little to scared because I knew I would miss him. Sure enough he’s gone now. But hey I love that I have a lot of freedom, nothings tying me down, no curfew nothing it’s just me! Yes I cried for like ever but hey it was tuff and I don’t expect and sympathy from anything or anyone.
When this happen I got very sick. Like I have been for about 3 and ½ days now. Its hard to sleep its hard to keep food down. But today when I woke up I was ok I didn’t feel really crappy I was smiling I go to school and I saw my friends and everything about him just went away. That’s what I love about school always seeing my friend’s, I only have less than a year left so I’m trying to embrace everything while I can. I don’t want to be a bad person or anything like that. I just want to go back to being myself before I met him. I wasn’t extremely happy but I think I will be now. But anyways here’s a song that reminds me of him but im not going to let it bother me.

"When you come back I won't be here"he said and gently pulled me nearIf you wanna talk you can call And no it's not your faultI just smiled and said "let go of me"Now there's something I just gotta know"Did someone else steal my part?"he said it's my fault

Then my heart did time in Siberia Was waiting for the light to come true'Cause it's all so dark and mysterious When the one you want doesn't want you too
I was drifting in between Like I was on the outside looking in In my dreams you are still here Like you've always been
I gave myself away completely But you just couldn't see me While I was sleeping in your bed 'Cause someone else was on your mind, in your head
When I came back, he wasn't there Just a note left on the stairs"If you wanna talk give me a call..."

though he wont answer when i call! which makes it easyier for me to get over the whole situation.

im bored!

kristin is standing next to me telling me what to do because im a retard and dont know what im doing with this site. but anyways im bored and i need work to do for this stupid studyhall!

oh yea get a life Kristin*